Sucks..

do u know how it feels like..

when something u yearn for it.. u have dreamed of.. been taken away.. u've thought tat obtaining it wont be any hard.. yet.. u still fail.. whats wrong.. wad da hell is wrong..

alrite.. im talkin bout JPA.. PSD.. the department.. who sponsored my bro to japan.. y don they sponsor me too.. i friggin dont know... i have the qualifications.. why.. i wouldnt say im the best.. but.. tats my dream.. i suppose everyone's dream.. but yet.. it a sad answer.. damnit.. i wan it so badly.. i want it.. what have i done wrong.. please.. tell me y i din get it..

heck.. im damn sad now.. im down.. moody.. moodless.. i feel like crying.. grieving.. but i couldnt.. i kept thinkin.. y am i not getting it..

come on.. get it out of my mind.. the road is close.. its a bye bye.. farewell to it.. JPA.. out.. kan wye yip.. wont be studying in korea.. hell yeah.. he will be recovering with time.. haha..

i'll be fine.. its not da end of the world.. irony..