Another ALONE...........

haha.. as da title says.. im alone again!!

its sunday. merdeka!! lol... my bro from japan is back for 1 month holidays. so my parents took him to kelantan to visit my 2nd bro.. i was forced to go but i insisted staying home to study.. which i havent reallt started.. i think da afternoon will be spent on studying.

hmm.. not much to report actually.. i din have much probs these few days.. my mind is getting into holidays.. i havent been studying for da last 2 days.. ah.. hope i wil be able to make up my mind to study..

im kinda bored being alone now.. with no ppl to chat with n nothing to play except study.. which i cant really sit n focus without anything beside me.. haha wat to do leh.. trial is in 1 weeks time.
n im not fully prepared.. but my mind is like ''aiya trial only mar.. after tat still can study. beside SPM kacang only''.. haiz.. really dunno how to change tat. dunno if im really confident or trying to tipu myself.. i really dunno eh..

schooling again... n probs again..

haiz.. holidays end.. school begins.. my body is getting more n more lazy.. ive been sleeping more often in school after tis holiday.. maybe my body still havent get used to school hours..

trial is jus a weeks time.. n i havent finish any particular subject... but im still proud of myself being able to revise 1 month before da exam.. n finish up my form 4 history revision.. only histroy i revised.. but theres still 10 other sbuject.. which doesnt include my form 5 history.. damn.. i really wasted alot of time... its true tat one who really wanna study shudnt touch tv.. or computer.. or anything... jus have to focus.. but i cant do it.. wonder if im gonna do badly in Trial or SPM... i really hope i wont.. i really wanna do well but im not putting effort in it... slowly i am.. but its too slow..

ah well.. i skipped school today... thurs is da most boring day.. i bet many ppl din go to school as well... i kinda regretted i din go for school cos i din much study at home too.. i slept till 11am.. n now my parents went to kl to get my bro bak... n i guess tonight i will have to face da music played by my bro.. i think i messed up da comp... viruses.. streamyx.. all problems arised when im incharge of da comp... i seriously dont know if i have did anything wrong but i always take care of da comp... i try to solve everything damn problem.. but last night i found out tat our streamyx acc have been used by some other ppl which caused da bill over RM200... im gonna be dead meat.. im definitely sure... i really hope i could find da culprit... but its almost impossible...

i spent my whole night yesterday till 1 am trying to clear out all da viruses.. but im still sure there are still some left... all tis thing is gonna affect my concentration on studies.. i spent my whole night last night not even touching my book.. i get reprimaded by my parents.. last night my parents were chatting with my bro thru da webcam.. n my mum keep sounding out da streamyx problem.. n my dad accuses me of always keeping da comp on until da morning.. which caused da virus to enter da comp... but da fact is i havent been able to touch da comp these few days.. weeks.. even months.. i havent been using much of da comp tis year.. n i nvr ever left da comp on till morning.. i was really pissed of when my dad accussed me.. y cant dey say its my 2nd bro.. hes da one who uses da comp n doesnt take care of them. i always have to get rid of da problems he caused.. y am i like a guy who helps n gets accussed at the end when something wrong is happening.. n i don get any praises for solving prob.. only problems for myself.. to think of ways to solve.. wasting my time.. jus to help them...

im da worse son in da family.. da laziest.. everything bad is on me.. all i done nvr satisfy them.. i get all da scoldings... all da stress is on me.. im da only left still schooling in secondary.. my bros are all in uni n their cared so much.. n im left out in da house.. am i really hopeless to tis family.. really a parasite to them... i dont know... but i wanna prove tat im not.. but im not capable.. i cant get thru myself.. im so useless..

Alone.. Sun..

ah well.. Sun again... end of holiday... last day...

woke up at 7.45... thought of exercising but couldnt really wake up... half asleep still.. took my shower n i cycle out to buy breakfast.. initially today i shud be eating maggie but yesterday night had already eaten so i decided to skip it today... not very healthy eating so much...

well i cycled out.. bought some buns... n curry noodles.. i planned my time well but when i got home i saw my aunt arriving at da same time... i wonder y she came so early... aunt said she would come bak later cos i havent had my breakfast.. but thru my uncle's face i can see hes not shuang adi... hes a man who dislikes ppl who are not punctual.. which my family always practice tis tradition...so i quickly had my breakfast.. n changed my clothings... n quickly move out without realising i forgot to close my kitchen back door n windows.. thank god nothing happened when i got bak...

so talk about tt... steven.. add math for da first 2 n half hours.. really bored n tired.. my fren din come n i sat alone.. looked like some freak on my own.. haiz... i was really tired tat time.. kept yawning.. maybe i didnt have enough sleep last night... after tat was mod maths lo... knew it would be boring... discussing those answer.. n da paper he gave i finished it in 30 mins.. swt...spm paper..

ha when tt over.. got no transport home.. phew.. luckily i asked a not so close de fren for tumpang. ha.. save money n energy again.. haha.. luckily... i go bak n jus finished up da bun i bought n ate some fruit n now ended on da comp...

hmm i really dunno wads my plan tonight.. don have da mood to study.. haiz... gonna end here.. lol maybe off ler.

Alone... Sat

aikz.. sat n sunday.. alonezzzz

haha its my alone weekend again... i always wished to be left alone at da house... but now i feel so bored.. im all alone in a small box.. cant do much things... really feel sien.. n have to look after da house.. really kinda scared something bad is gonna happen.

ha.. sat morning.. i was informed of prac.. had to wait for me parents to get ready to KL only i can go to school... so i reached when choir is almost ending.. lol... sorry eh... maybe some of u guys don believe me but its da truth.. i really had no choice... after choir.. went for parade kopitiam.. many ppl don seem to be happy tat day.. wonder y.. well.. i da bao ice lemon coke n jus walked down to sri kota for Bio.

been to long since i went bak to sat bio class.. kinda like 3 weeks i nvr went bak.. first thing i went in.. saw all look like unfamiliar faces. haha. like always.. i had to wait for my frenz to arrive n find a place to sit cos most of da place occupied by SMI or ACS ppl.. damn i hate those ppl.. makes me wanna give them a punch on their faces.. dey look so arrogant... n dey nvr listen to da teacher teaching in front n dey like to play around. i heard my fren saying tat some guy conteng my pants with highlighter.. damn really feel so angry.. but luckily i was able to calm down.. lol

as Bio ended.. at 2.15pm.. i had to wait for my moral class.. 3.30.. i went for McD to use da toilet.. n bought a freaking RM4 Fillet o Fish.. n tat counter guy jus ask 'hanya ini saja'? his tone is like looking down on me... hmmph.. finished da burger n i walk to da tt place... arrived at aobut 3pm so i sat on a bench n took out my Mp3 n jus listen while trying to study... i jus look like some guy who ran out of home carrying his bag with all da stuffs inside.. lol.. Do i look stupid when carrying tat bag?? i really wanna know..

after tt luckily Mr. Subra my teacher was able to drive me home.. luckily.. if not need to take bus waste 1 buck again.. n lotsa energy.. fuu.. reached home.. n got a bath n went on9... din actually study... almost until 7.30 i on9 den feel hungry... when i wanted to go out to buy food.. damn it rained.. i had no choice.. maggie mee for dinner.. haiz... i somehow started to hate them.. lol...

well it rained quite heavily.. thunderstorm as well.. so i wasnt able to on9... im so worried n i went downstairs to study.. which i normally wouldnt... i mostly study on my bed or on my room desk.. worried tat burglar might break into my hse...

oh well.. ntg really happened.. so i got to sleep.. made sure everything was locked.. everything was ok only i went upstairs.. but i couldnt really sleep.. still keep worrying.. lol.. eventually i slept...

Hair Cut

hu...

i cut my hair.. like always... very damn short... side burns gone.. fringe gone... lol.. all kena cukur..
i actually wad hair really suit me... ppl say long hair looks nice... but i nvr style it... like ah biao to me... ppl jou say natural.. lol.. sometimes really dunno shud cut or not.. haha

anyways i cut my hair.. its more comfortable to me. haha
sorry no pics to see... lazy to take..

holidays..

havent been updating my blog... sorry for those who read my blog... or even i shudnt be sorry... i wonder if anybody reads my blog...

haiz.. well holidays... one thing i look forward during school days...
but tis holiday... i actually planned to study history.. to finish it up... but i dont think i will be able to do it... lets jus pray everything works on well in my trial...

ahh.. holidays have been very boring to me........ very very very damn boring... almost everyday im occupied with tuition.. tuition... haiz... after tuition... i get so tired n i have tis feeling tat i have studied for da day... damn... im so damn useless to myself.. n some more... i have been quarreling with my mum... she sometimes gets to fan... cheong hei... ask tis ask tat... n sometimes delay my work.. my tt time... ahh... really dunno wad happening to me.. im like having "period''... aikz... i get so Fiery easily... sorry mum... i don mean it... i jus don feel good... n i hope u understand me.. please don stress me to much...

sometimes its so bored tat i really dunno wad i can do... i jus sit down n wonder... wads gonna happen to me...i really wasted a lot of time... i really hope somebody will be able to accompany me... talk me thru... enlighten me.. really fix me... guide me... but very hard to find someone.. n most of them don even care how i do... how am i... maybe its jus my feeling of getting a real good fren to always accompany me... sometimes.. i wonder if i do really have frenz... wad are frenz... they are those who stand by u when ur in trouble.. dey share ur happiness n ur sadness... do i really have such frenz??

haiz.... ive really got no mood to study right now at tis moment... 10.45pm.. n i dunno wad im doing on9.. jus staring at da stupid screen n doing nothing...

Choir Farewell..

oh well... 16th AUG was da night but now i only i post it...

tat night... started at 7 sumthing bah.. at excelsior... actually i wasnt really interested in tis farewell ler... haiz.. really no feel on tis batch of choir... but luckily seniors are coming bak to tis farewell so i made up my mind to go...

as u know my heart... i din enjoy much of da farewell... i jus took pics with almost everyone.. but not everyone lar.... haiz.. old camera really cacat.. pics not very nice... ah well.. i din care much about it...

i did somehow get myself involved in da farewell eventually... but something happened after tat... haiz... wasnt a good night i suppose...

tat night after da farewell we planned to go some other place to wet... i was following wai yin n mei yeun from behind... to their car.. alas... snatch thief... damn him... when i was following... to a junction... a motorcyclist stopped at da junction near mei yeun... i thought tat guy was jus trying to turn... but WTF... tat guy was actually a snatch thief.. mei yeun shouted... den wai yin.. dropped off his bag... chased da guy... but me... i was jus standing... like trying to think wad happened... y da hell is my brain to slow....thinking bak.. i could have taken my shoes n throw towards tat guy or give a chase...damn wye yip.. ur brain is dumb... mei yeun lost his handbag... car keys... handphone... and purse of course.. n IC etc... haiz.. sorry mei yeun..

den we saw a police patrol car... waved n told him wad happened... ah.. tat police.. is damn lazy to me... instead he stopped by n asked us some details... stupid... he shud have try to patrol around n see if theres any chance of getting da thief.... haiz... well everyone came n tried to help out.. but actually there wasnt much to do either... so soem of them jus waited with wai yin n mei yeun de parents to get da spare car key to get their car home...

well da night jus ended like tat.. tat incident happened around 12.30... n i got home at 1 sumthing n got my sleep at 2... haiz...seriously wished i could turn bak time.. i would really like to K.O tat guy...

A day Alone..

ahh... time to update sumthing i guess...

its sunday... as usual i woke up at 8 in da morning for tt..
tt starts at 9.15... but my mum went out early in da morning n came bak at 9...
n i was kinda furious... showing all those swung moods.. haiz...
to be frank... tt was really boring... maths.. add maths... add maths is boring becos i don really und wad da teacher is saying n all those damn long solutions...
n for maths... damn easy till i feel tat i waste alot of time... ahh...
but something happened lol.. at 2 pm electricity was off.. LOLZ.
we were ''released'' earlier which we were supposed to go off at 2.30..
but it wasnt much of long time..

well i got home by my fren's car.. thankfully i din have to take a bus n walk a long distance..
well all alone at home... my parents went to KL to do some cleanings in da apartment..
Had my lunch.. n den Top Gear..
at 4 i went to Choo's house to help them repair da comp... i cant really figure out wads wrong with tat... ahh n i jus came up with another alternative.. thank god.. at least i managed to mkae da computer work...

came home.. so sien... n don feel like studying but my mind wants me to study... ahhh..
hope tonight i will be able to do some revision...
good luck to those who are going to have exam...

n in here i wish a Happy Birthday to Ziyi lar... 17 yrs old lo... older den me.. haiz..

guess i might go online at night... hopefully i can utilize my time well..
gonna stop here... ran out of ideas...

yippie signing off..

Viruses... Damn

ah.. hate viruses.. damn... they really kill ur computer... wonder if ppl take them seriously but i take them very seriously..

i jus got my antivirus.. which is kaspersky activated... phew.... after 2 weeks of no guard for tis comp... n my phone too was infected.. took me an hour to dig up for info about da virus n clear it up... damn them... dey can really immobilise ur memory drive... even my phone with a mere 28mb also da virus wants... gilaaaaa....

hope my comp will be alright... i havent been taking care of da comp... hope my bro don fire me when he comes bak from japan n checks da comp in a disaster state... i used up lotsa space... for musics.. vids... dang... wad can i do... feel like cleaning but dunno how... jus format?? lolz..

Campur Aduk... LOL

ahhh..

its been ages since i have updated tis blog... but anyhow i also don think anyone will urge me to update cos not much ppl read tis also.. haha

had my modem replaced as da old one.. like cacat adi... so now only can online... i jus realised tat online is da only thing i can do on a computer... haiz... how am i gonna utilise a computer without going online leh..

been busy with stuffs nowdays.. mostly finishing school works... which is a good sign tat im doing homework... i can see myself with a book almost everynight liao. haha. n my parents also seldom kacau me liao.. cos dey see me with books everytime Xp.

hmmm today i went for a seminar for BM, Moral, and Sejarah... i thought it would be an interesting day.. but it turned out to be a day wasted... overall... da moral teacher was da best... he is my tt teacher also.. haha. most ppl also enjoy his session only.. good work Mr. Subra. Haha
For BM n Sejarah.. i din learn stuffs which i hope to learn... but i also dunno wad i wanna learn.. lol... Mr. Lau was so strict today.. firing da backbenchers for not behaving OURselves.. hahaa

coming bak home... have to finish up da add math project... but too boring too look at them.. n ended up updating tis thing... haha... hopefully i can complete da project n with no problems... God Bless Me..


actually.. i dunno whether to reveal tis blog anot leh... only about 5 ppl know about tis... hope those ppl can give their comments when dey visit... hopefully... haiz...